Ugh. So I failed this dumbass romanticism (I can't even spell it. That should already be a sign I failed) shit for english and my grade went down 2%. I still kick myself in the ass for sending myself the wrong assignment hella weeks ago and making my grade drop 7% because I couldn't turn it in late. Hella fucked up my grade but what can you do? It went from a B+ to a C. Oh how depressing. Then I brought it up with getting a B on the essay but since I failed this test it went from a C+ to a C. Ugh. I need to raise it 2% for a C+ or 4% for a B-. Then I'm borderlining in chem right now. I really don't want anything lower than a C for the semester. =( When we started doing moles it just went downhill from there. I really, really, really don't get balancing equations. But I'm just trying to keep my head up and pass with whatever I can get busting my ass these next few days. I've never been so determined to accomplish anything in my life. There's nothing I can really do to raise my grades all that much for this semester, but next semester I'm gonna stay so focused and so determined to get the best grades I can. I'm really happy with myself right now, haha. That sounded kinda stupid but seriously, if no one else is happy with me and my school shit fuck yooou. No one ever took an interest in my school unless it was when I had me 3.96 GPA or I skipped a grade. Now that I'm actually not doing as good as all the other asian kids in my school it's like no one has any faith in me getting into USF or Sam Merritt. Hell, I'm starting to lose faith in myself but I can't. I have to be my biggest support to make it through all of this. I've been getting the worst stress migraines ever. It's unbearable. And that stabbing pain I get behind my eye has gotten worse and comes more often. I really hope it'll pass once I'm not as stressed. I don't really think I show I'm stressed. I mean I stay pretty chill through whatever so it just kinda sits inside of me doing nothing. My Mom won't buy anymore NyQuil because no one needs it. I can't use it to sleep anymore. =( I have to remind myself to breathe sometimes. I may not be moving but my mind is still on twelve different things. I'm always on the go trying to make sure everything and everyone is taken care of that I have to take a minute to just sit down and breathe. I need a hug. Just a "Hey, you're okay" kinda hug. =/ *Sighh. I need to lay down. My mind is everywhere, as usual.