I really don't wanna be here. I'm pretty sure my random outbursts of crying has to do with the fact I'm PMSing but I still really don't wanna be here. The boys and Tita Che are outside playing in the snow and my Mom and Mama and Paulo are just in the living room. As for me... I'm being antisocial like I normally am around my family and I'm hiding in one of the rooms. I brought Twilight so I could watch it since I know that I won't be doing shit for the next three days. I don't plan on leaving the cabin because I hate the snow plus I didn't even bring the right kinda shoes. I brought cloth Vans, ha! So they can't force me unless they wanna go out and buy my snow shoes, which I won't let happen because why spend so much money on a pair of shoes I'm only gonna wear once? I'll just do homework. I hate sleeping in beds of people I don't know.. Like hotels and stuff, I get really uncomfortable because idk how clean they are and stuff. Ugh. I brought my own pillow but I don't know if I wanna use it because what if their germs transfer onto my pillow?! Haha. I'm always so paranoid about this kinda stuff. I hope these three days go by faster but I'm not counting on it. Everyone's been arguing so it'll just upset me even more and make the days go by slower.. I really wish I wasn't here. I know I sound so ungreatful right now but it's not that. I just don't like spending time with my family like this. I told them repeatedly that I don't want to go, that doesn't mean I'm not gonna try to enjoy myself but I just would much rather not be here. I should've brought IT. I didn't get to finish it last night. That movie is so long. -_- Anywhoo.. I think I'm gonna go to sleep or something. I don't feel like being awake and dealing with all of this shit I'm feeling. *sighh..