I'm jealous.. >=( I want someone that'll take me cutsey places and do romantic cute things for me! Someone that takes an interest in me and stuff. Everyone else has that/is getting that and it's like, for over a year I've just been some sideline typa thing where I never really got anyone's full attention.. I've never been taken out on a date. I've never had that period where someone is trying to really "get me." Not like get at me, but get me more and more interested in them. It's always been the same stagnant, expectable thing for so long. I want someone to surprise me with stuff. Not really material stuff but like, even a cute text message or e-mail or card or something. I always try to do that for my bfs or the guy I'm talking to and no one's ever done that for me. I've never been given flowers, or balloons, or a card, or a birthday present, none of that. I wish I had someone to be comfortable with and have fun with. I want to be able to wake up in the morning and know the person I have feelings for feels the same way. -_- I'm sick of stupidass games. I actually want a boyfriend. Or something.. I guess? Or at least be talking to someone who has feelings for me, even if it ultimately doesn't go anywere. Someone that will actually hug me in public... Ugh. I'm just, bwaah.. Idk. I guess I'll lay down now.