Today wasn't at all what I had imagined it to be. I thought we'd have a great lovely day, no arguing; basically I thought it'd be something it definitely didn't turn out to be. It wasn't completely bad though. I mean, I was being my typical cranky bitch self throughout the begining, and most of it, but it ended up ending on an okay one. I'm home now and I'm hella sleepy.. I wish I could repeat the whole day. I regret being so difficult and ruining the day. Thankfully we managed to salvage it to some extent. I miss him already. I haven't really been sad or missed him in hella long. It's kinda weird, haha. I got my first massage today! Sorta. Haha.

I don't know what you're up to, what you're doing (or who, smh...) but thank you for being here for me. I know I definitely have shit I need to work on and maturing to do, just like you, but I hope that over time something better will come of this situation. Your approach on trying to "help me" on trying to get better and just be happy doesn't really make anything better (lol) but I guess it's better than you not trying at all. Maybe you're right. Maybe I do ignore the goods things you do and the ways you try and make me happy. That really made me think. Anywhoo, I hope I can see you soon. I know driving me around wasn't exactly what you wanted to do, but you did it anyways. Thank you. Thank you thank you thank you. I don't know what else to say. I had a good day with you, regardless of our arguing. I love ya.