Thang,
I've never felt like any other person really loved me other than you. But I fucked that up. We were so compatible. I don't regret anything, but I feel terrible for hurting you. I hurt you for someone who just played me. I left something hella good for a fucken downgrade. I wish I could take the hurt away. I know it doesn't matter to either one of us at this point because that shit happened so long ago but the year and some odd months we had meant the most to me. I always look back on them and say "THAT'S how a guy should treat me and I'm not gonna be treated any other way." I know I don't always stick to that but I always look to the way you treated me to reassure me that I damn well should be treated good. You were like my bestfriend and my love all wrapped into one. I remember calling you when I got to school to wake you up and you'd text me during first period cos you were still in bed, haha. And you woke up at 6:00am just to get a ride with your cousin to SJSU and you took the bus from SJSU to Piedmont just to see me. You really stayed solid for me. I remember when you told me you just didn't care about me like that anymore, you really stayed on the phone with me even with your brother in the same room asleep while I cried. Even though you hurt me, I still felt that you cared about me. Although we haven't talked in dumbass long and it's hella awkward and shit when we do, it's understandable. I have no problem with it. We aren't in each other's lives anymore and that's okay because that's the way things are meant to be but I just wanted to say thanks, thanks for lovin me and teaching me so much. And thanks for the memories. Some of my best.
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