Sunday, June 6, 2010

No point staying at a place where I'm not wanted.

My Mom made it pretty clear to me yesterday that she didn't want me around. She stood in my doorway while I laid in bed crying telling me I made her life hell and her life would be easier if I wasn't around. This isn't the first time she's said it and this time it hurt the most. I don't know why I'm staying in a place where I'm clearly not wanted. After tomorrow, I'll just clean my room and pack my shit then probably spend the rest of my summer at my Grandparent's house. I make her life so much harder so why should I stay? No one understands how much she hurts my feelings. I get I don't make her life easy either but that doesn't mean she can say all these hurtful words to me. I'd much rather her be completely disconnected from my life than have a Mom who's involved but says all this mean shit to me all the time. She makes me feel like I'm a bad person. I don't know what else to do. I can't "work" things out with her and talk it out; my family just isn't like that. My last option is to just leave. Either I'm gonna wait out these last 4 days of school or leave Tuesday. I don't know what else to do.

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