SERIOOUSLY THE PAST TWO DAYS HAVE BEEN A BIG GIANT JUMBLE... So what happened Monday.. I go to Hayward for the first time in forevs, only the second time this summer. Or actually no. I met Bryant at Little Mad Fish and we devoured two tables worth of food. It was hella nice to hang out with him since we were so close before. It was coo to reconnect with him and just fuck around. We ended up going to Mt. Eden Park where I awkwardly sat on a bench by myself while people stared at me... Lol. You know that stare where it's like "I know who that is but I don't know them like that" kinda stare. After I headed out with my norm to Nicko's. That felt like the longest walk EVER in my boots. Ended up walking to some guy's house where they bought a dub then we walked to Longwood Park and sat for forever. After that we... Went back to Nicko's where there were hella people and his couch almost ate me. Then eventually I crashed since I had to be up before 4:00am the next morning. I got like 3 hours and 30 minutes of sleep... Haha. I felt pretty refreshed though, or so I thought. Shit I was delirious, haha. It was fun just camping out there with the boy. Typical arguing and stuff, nothing out of the norm basically. We camped out for almost 4 hours then we were in the store for another like, hour a little more. But we were done at AT&T and picking up Dennys before 10:00. Yesterday everyone was like "If you're so fed up with him just stop talking to him. You're just causing problems for yourself." That's true but I mean, most of me has given up and I'm just over the whole thing because it'll never be what I want it to be and I've realized that and I have been happier. We just kick it and it's hella chill. Most of the time I enjoy his company and we have a good time so I guess it's harmless (I'm totally gonna regret that statement, lol. This = HARMFUL). Buuuuuutt.. I'm exhausted. I need to nap. I've been up toooo fucken long.