Idk why I got stuck with such shitty relationships in my life. Like wtf did I do so bad when I was young to get stuck with such crappy relationships. It's not even the people that are crappy it's just our relationship that is. That's why everytime I fight with someone whether it be friends, family, or a guy I don't even see the point in trying to work things out anymore because it's not like they do anything for me. I'm always wrong too. I don't even want anyone in my life anymore. It's too messy and everything ends up being all my fault somehow so why would I constantly wanna get blamed for shit? I don't ask for much and I feel like people just love letting me down. I hate even telling people what's wrong because even though they ask they don't wanna hear what I have to say. Why bother asking? No one gives a crap about Rikki so I'm done. I can't fucken deal with people anymore. It's too much drama and a waste of my time. I hate feeling like I try and try but I'm not meant to be stuck with the people that've come into my life and that I care about so much. They don't give a crap anyways. I'm done.





I wish I could do some retail therapy to temporarily make me feel better. But oh wait, I spent all my money on an ungrearful jackass who has no respect for me or my feelings. Way to go Rikki.