If I could I'd much rather be spending Christmas alone. I'd shut off my phone and just chill in my room all by myself watching movies or something. I'm not much for spending time with my family like this, never have been. I like spending time with my friends and their family better than me own. I feel like I'm comin off hella ungreatful for the family I have. It's not even that. It's the simple fact that we do not get along. It's rare that we do. I've been home alone since 8:00am. I'm not complaining; I love it. I laid in bed till 2:45 when I showered, changed into warmer clothes then made food. My Mom told me to call her when I woke up. Hehe, I'll call her in a bit..

Why do we argue so fucken much? It's really ridiculous. When I woke up at 12:30am this morning I was mad as fuck at you. I guess I was mad from what I was thinking about before I fell asleep. Then you go and call me all mad as fuck calling me stupid and shit, whatever. The three times we've spoken all day we've just argued and are conversations barely lasted 4 minutes total. I don't think I'll tell you what's bothering me till after Christmas because you're going to spend time with your family tonight and I'm not tryna put a damper on you over how I'm feeling. That'd be pretty selfish. I'll just set it aside and let you go have a good time. We'll talk about it another time. Till then, I think I'ma call my Mom now. I've been in bed too long. It's almost 4:00pm.