Nick texted me today. It was pretty random.. I don't know what to think. I kinda just brushed it off. I told him he needs to stay away and just leave me be. He asked me if I was sure and to be honest no I'm not fucken sure but I need to rationally think what's best for me. I can't let the fact that I still love him cloud my judgment; I did that too much already.

Vacation was fun. I really needed to escape the realities of home and just have fun, even if it was with my family. I didn't buy many souviners. All my money went to food and buying my fam stuff they wanted. It felt nice to see them smile cos of something I bought with my hard earned money. It stung a little bit to have spent all that much but hey, they're family. I get paid on Monday. It won't be much since I missed hella days but it's something. I guess I'll visit Erick too while I'm there.

The whole John thing has blown over. I have to admit, that shit was fucken HILARIOUS.