Work was coo. It was pretty busy in the morning/afternoon. I missed everyone! Emmy wasn't at work today though, that bitch. I'll see him in the morning though. I wore make-up to work today, like I've been the past few weekends, and everyone was going crazy. "You look so pretty!" etc etc, "Especially without your glasses." That's flattering but I want someone to think I'm pretty without make-up on. I barely wear any! Foundation or a tinter moisturizer, mascara, usually eye liner, and lipstick. Sometimes I contour and highlight but it's not like I use hella. But I do look pretty different. It was soo funny! Me and Justin went to In-N-Out on break and the cashier dude was being hella friendly and shit to me but I was all whatever, I was pretty sure he was tryna flirt but he was kinda..not nerdy but idk what else to call him. But he hella kept talking to me when I was waiting for my food and whatever. Then when we sat he kept coming in my direction finding something to do then he disappeared for awhile then came back and was all "You guys want stickers?" so we were like "Sure.." and mine said "Back" on the front so I flipped it over and it was his number. LOLOL. Omg. Ever since I did my hair I get more attention. It's funny. I'm flattered but I'm not looking for anyone. I'm done with dudes. It's fun to flirt and shit but I don't take guys seriously anymore. No guy, especially the good lookin ones!!, want a relationship and when they are in one they still fuck with girls on the under anyways so what's the point of being in one? I'll be forever alone! Lol. But as long as I'm not getting hurt by anyone then is all good. The attention is nice doe! ^_^ Hehe. I'm happy being a lonely girl. ^_^ ^_^ ^_^

Nick is trying to be...friends? Lol.. Idk man, idk. I don't know how I feel about this! I still love him to death and wish him nothing but the best, absolutely no hard feelings, but we can't be friends right now. Maybe in the future but not right now. It was nice to talk to him and hear his voice. It brought a smile to my face but is it still the "I'm in love with you" smile or is it like the "distant friends reconnecting" smile? I'm not really sure what's going on and I really don't care? It's not a pressing matter to me and it's not really on my mind so it's whatevs. It's not that I don't care but then again I don't care. It's complicated to explain so whatever, lol. The two years we did our thing really taught me a lot, after the fact. I was really blind to a lot while we were talking and if there was any hope of us really working things out and being in a happy healthy relationship we needed to be apart. I looked back on stuff and I really realized a lot and learned a lot about myself and being with another person. It taught me not to settle. Compromise is okay, but never feel like you're not getting what you deserve. The guy you're giving your all to should want to do that. Things changed between Nick and I and I didn't want to believe that. But when he finally just cut it was like a weight off my shoulders. A part of me was happy he left. It let me breathe. I do miss him though, I'm not gonna lie. But like Ronnie and Thang, it'll pass. I'm a-okay.