I REALLY don't want to fucken go to Tahoe Valenties Day weekend...with my family. Number one I hate the snow, number two I hate "family time" because no one ever gets along, third it's not even going to be just family because Tita's gay friend is tagging along IN OUR FUCKEN CABIN, and fourth I'll be PMSing like crazy because I'm supposed to get my period the day we come back from Tahoe...which is the middle of Presidents week off. Which means I can't do shit because I'll be all bloaty and crampy and bloody and irritable. Thanks for ruining my vacation guys, thanks. I almost cried in the car today because I kept telling my Mom how much I don't want to go with them, for so many reasons. Call me ungreatful but I just hate spending time with my family. I begged my Mom to leave me behind and she said "No, they won't let me stay here by yourself that long." I'm capable of taking care of myself.

I hate how they've stolen every holiday away from me this year. I'm spending Valentines Day with them, they're not going to let me spend my 16th birthday in Hayward because it lands on a Saturday and we always do that bullshit family dinner (I say it's my birthday let me choose what I want to do >=O), Christmas we'll be in the Philippines... WTF GUYS. It's not that I don't love my family but we just don't see eye to eye. People don't get that. They're always like "Families fight blah blah." I get that. But why am I gonna try to deny how I feel? Whaffer.. I don't get why Tito Rob goes to USF for five years and spends $150,000+ on his education, gets his own house in SF, a new car, AND gets to go BACK to school to become a fucken nurse and has never had a job in his life. Must be fucken nice. My Grandparents give him money and he gets to go to all these places with his friends. He goes out to dinner, bars, he's gone to SoCal at least four or five times, he went to Vegas. This guy is 26. He needs to get his ass a JOB. Just talking about it makes me resent my family even more but whatever. Nothing changes so there's no point in even stressing over it.

Today I got into argument number 13 with my Mom over my date to prom. I keep joking around with her saying I'm gonna bring all these different people (people she obviously doesn't approve of considering this bitch is straight YELLING at me and threatening to not let me go if I take them) and it makes me think.. Why the fuck is she trippen? It's not HER date so stfu. Just because you don't think our picture would look nice? I didn't know my prom date had to make you happy. I'm fed up with making everyone else happy. I don't give a fuck who she's "letting" me bring. I'm bringing who I want regardless. That's if I even go to prom, which I doubt I am lol. Whatever. I've lived too long making sure everyone's happiness came before mine. Prom is such a little thing, she's so dumb...