"Too much emotion without no devotion.'

You can love someone and not be right for them, you can love someone and not want to be with them, you can love someone and be incompatible. There are so many reasons a relationship could not work even if the love is there. That's something I've learned through all my experiences with guys. No matter how hard one person works if the other person doesn't want the same there will never be even ground. The hardest part about moving on from that person is that you love them. I'm not taking about the "I love you but I'm not in love with you anymore" or "I love you but I'm just not really feelin it" type thing. I mean the real "I'm still in love with you" type thing. The whole you're still in love and would die for that person but you need to move on because you have to type of thing. I hate having to move on because things just aren't working. If the effort from the person is visible and it's still not working sucks, yes. But I hate moving on because the person isn't working. Strange I know, but it makes me feel like I wasn't even that important. I hate that someone can love someone else but just be lazy as fuck about the relationship. If you knew that we weren't ever gonna be on the same page about what we both wanted I don't know why you even bothered. You could've saved me a lot of heartache jerk.

I don't believe in "going with the flow" bullshit either. Yes, go with it. Don't force anything. But don't be inconsistent. That's what I absolutely hate. I hate that you come in and out of my life at different times and with different amounts of love each time. I'm keeping my emotions to myself until you figure out what you want, or you at least tell me. You can't not talk to me for a week or treat me like I don't exist then come back and "baby this baby that" me for two or three days. It's a vicious cycle and I've let it go on for too long. Tell me what you want and I'll tell you what I want and if we can't reach some type of agreement then there's nothing more that I can do. I can't stay like this forever. If there's no solid future for us in the near future then I gotta do what I gotta do and leave. I don't want to leave, but if that needs to happen I'm not gonna let you continuously hurt my feelings because of your behaviors. No way. My happiness > my feelings for you. I love you. More than anything. I know it's you I want to be with because through all the bullshit we've been through it's still you that holds my everything but I'm taking it back and leaving because you just aren't consistent. You have to either be in my life and stay one thing, whatever it is, or just get the hell out. I don't get how you can say we need to go our separate ways then you still text me. I don't get it. If you want to leave then go. And that means stop talking to me. We were never friends before any of this so I really can't see myself just jumping right into friend mode with you after we separate. Yeah you're the love of my life too but if this is all there is then I feel like I'm just wasting my time. I enjoy spending time with you and I enjoy you as a person but I feel stuck. And if this is all I'm gonna get after all this time then may as well just leave. What would the point be of staying if there's nothing I'm gonna gain in the long run? If I DIDN'T want to be "tied down" I wouldn't fucken be doing this. You look at it as if I'm gonna change or something. I go out, I have fun, that's not gonna change if we're together wtf. YOU'RE the one that's thinking that I'm gonna completely change and try and control you and shit. No, you're gonna do what you want regardless of I have to say. I guess I'd wanna stay single too if I had the one girl who'll do everything for me and I could still fuck with God knows how many other females. I just don't know if I'm willing to put myself through this anymore if there's no future for us in the future.

Good relationships balance over time. This means that at any particular point in time, the relationship may appear quite unbalanced: One partner may be more nurturing; one may be more needy; one may be providing all the financial support, etc. But if both partners are loving, understanding, giving, dedicated and flexible, then the relationship can handle all kinds of ups and downs, and still be strong, exciting and, yes, romantic. The best relationships are well balanced. Not a delicate balance; not a static balance- but a dynamic ever-changing balance.