Day 4 —Your sibling (or closest relative)

DYYYYYYYL, MY WITTLE FATTY. I always talk to Mom about how much I took for granted the times when you were dependent on me, when you were a baby. I miss your pamper pull-up days. The days when you'd fit in my arms and cuddle with me. The days when you needed me. I was still such a little kid then too but I look back on those moments today and miss them so much. You're so grown up now. It makes me so sad seeing you grow up. I get really excited and happy for you too. But I'm scared. I wish I could repeat the years when we'd watch Between the Lions and PBS Kids together. We'd lay in Mommy's office watching TV eating hot pockets together. I miss you innocent, mischevious smile. And your big head! I miss when you were a baby. It really tears me up realizing how time has just flown by. I'm sorry for ALL the crap I say to you. I know I can be soo mean but I let my anger and temper get the best of me sometimes and you're the easiest target. I love you, Bubba. You're the most important little guy in my life. You're just too old to want me around anymore. =/ No other times in the future will ever replace the fun times we had when we were kids though. When we were innocent and carefree. I miss them so much. Thanks for always asking me if I'm okay when I'm crying. Thanks for always hugging me and kissing me goodnight. I love you dude. I'll always be here to protect you and bail you out of trouble. Which is a lot! -_- Idk what I'm gonna do with myself around the house these next 5 days while you're gone.. Love you. -Ate <3