You've gotta get the point that you did this to yourself. Just do me the favor and stop bothering me. You had two years to get your shit together and you didn't. And now I'm just fed up with it. I spent damn near two years of my life devoted and faithful to a relationship that wasn't even a relationship to begin with. I spent two years of my life being devoted and faithful to a disrespectful, inconsiderate person.
This last time you convinced me, you really convinced me that things would get better. I swallowed my pride and ignored what my gut was telling me and I let myself start trusting you again. I started giving you the benefit of the doubt. But you blew it..again. The comment itself didn't really make me upset, it was what it represented: my trust, and my stupidity for trusting you. It brought me back to how I felt when I found all those Facebook messages you sent to other girls and all the text messages I'd read. It made me hate you all over again. I'm tired of turning a blind eye to it and sweeping it under the rug like it never happened. Bruh, it happened. Take responsibility for it. If you wanna play, then by all means feel free. But you ain't gonna play me no more. I know what it's like to be treated good and this is definitely not it. My trust with you is at about a -92 and my resentment towards you is at about a 110. I've so over your bullshit and your littleass games. I know I'm not perfect but damn.. You really can't point the finger at me this time. You honestly blew it. You lost your last chance and I'm done with you.
I'm tired of being disrespected. I'm over it. I'm tired of settling for less. I mean no disrespect because maybe this situation will work for another girl but it ain't cuttin it for me and I deserve better. I at least deserve a man who'll leave me enough money in my bank account to fucken buy myself lunch. That was so fucken selfish. That's disgustingly selfish. I couldn't even feed myself. I have a fucken job. I gave up my social life to have a job to be able to buy myself things for myself and do things when I want. But no, you're selfish. I had no problem buying you things here and there but fuck. You can't even leave me enough money to buy myself a goddamn sandwich? I had to ask someone to buy food for me? Do you know how fucken embarassing that is that I can't even apply for college yet because you've used up so much of my money on nonsense bullshit?
You blew it. Just give up. I really can't think of anything you could possibly do to get me to even remotely trust you again. I think you're a complete selfish, direspectful full of shit human being...that I'm in love with. I'm tired of looking like a dumbass and I'm tired of being embarassed and letting you walk all over me. I can't take you seriously and I sure can't take this pathetic situation seriously. I've over it. I don't even care.
I just want you to know that you did it to yourself. After 2 years you and a million chances you still couldn't get your shit together. You're not the "man" I wanna be with. That's a joke.
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