Ooooh I just wanna punch something right now. I'm so tired of this. I got a headache so fucken bad and I'm shaking and hot as fuck. I'm sitting in the backyard for some fucken air but it's not fucken helping. I thought shit was going so well but he proved me wrong again. I know I'm not proving him I'm any different but damn.. I want to tell him I'm sorry and I wanna make up but he's gonna belittle me and treat me like shit when I put my pride aside? No thanks. I'd rather sit here pissed off without him. I'm not gonna waste time on someone who doesn't care. He says it left and right but when (to me) it comes down to the moments I need him to show me he cares most, he of course doesn't. What's a girl to do? Idk how I feel. I always wanna tell him what's on my mind but I know he won't give me the reaction I want.