My break has been going pretty well. =) Went to Tomi's on Tuesday with Elaine and David. Soo yummy. It was nice to catch up with her. She sent me the cutest text. We really are bffs even though we're not talking or spending time together EVERY second. We get that our lives can't be completely intertwined all the time but we always make time for each other.

Today I went to the beach with Kevin, Justin, Cam, and Rosie. It was fun. I didn't wear any makeup, ahhh. Haha. It felt nice. I got super tan though but today was fun. It was nice to spend time with the boys again. Justin's sister is pretty funny, haha. Idk, I thought I had more to say but I guess not. Lol. I'm guuuud.

I'm very happy. Even though this nigga Giovanni thought he could play me and I caught him and I'm doin me solo again I'm quite happy! :) Just 3 weeks till graduation and I'm too juiced to be working, hopefully 2 jobs if Max's doesn't give me more hours. I don't like having free time so I'm constantly trying to occupy myself with one thing or another. I'm steady tryna build up my savings. Err, the money in my account. I had almost $1,000 in my checking but I was hella mad so I went shopping, haha. But I'm trying to save extra now cos they cut my hours and are gonna again during the summer. The BBQ in ssf was hella fun in Friday. Cut 4-6 and went up there. Saw my Hansy horse, whee! I have the best coworkers ever. I'm blessed. <3

Nick just called me. Apparently I'm in the wrong for having sex with Giovanni. He got all mad at me like "I can't believe you. I never wanna talk to you again. You really a bop?" Blah blah blah, shut the fuck up. He acts like he didn't have sex with all these other female while we were talking for TWO YEARS. I asked him if what he did to me was okay abd justified and he said "Well you act like you weren't my main." Uh, that doesn't make all the shit you did to me okay. He knew I was right that's why he avoided the question. He can be mad all he wants but I didn't do a damn thing wrong. He can think I'm a bop, hoe, slut all he wants..I don't really care. Of course I still care about him but I'm gonna do me regardless. Me and Giovanni aren't talking and we aren't gonna be. We both don't want anything serious (idk what I want, lol, but whatever happens happens) but we just had fun. Is it gonna happen again? Idk. Do I want it to? I don't care either way but he's made me feel safe, happy, comfortable, beautiful.. And no other guy has ever treated me like that. He's a hella good person and that's what I like. Some girl will be lucky one day.

But as far as Nick is concerned.. He has no right to be mad. I expected him to flip out but he can't expect me to put my life on hold for him. He said he never wants to talk to me again. Fine.

Hah. It makes me laugh to see pictures Nick's in on someone's Facebook and he's wearing shit I bought him. Idk why that's funny but it makes me laugh like FUCK. This nigga was tryna act all friendly and shit and when I try to give two fucks about tryna be his friend he ignores me. Okay... *rolls eyes, lol. Idc but don't take the time out of your day to bother me just to fuck with me cos I don't care. Anyways, Max's isn't the same withouth my Hansy horse. ;( Can't believe he's really not there anymore. Who else are me and Emilio gonna think is cute? Lol. Other than Kevin but he's so short. I thought I was gonna blog a lot more than this but I'm tiyuud now.

I'm lightweight mad about how things with Giovanni turned out. He was really sweet and nice but I'm not gonna stick around and fuck with you...just to fuck. He was really trying to convince me he was like "that." But I don't trust that, plus I'm not some sideline hoe. He was so nice and I had fun while it lasted but what's done is done. Oh well.

I haven't cried in a really, really long time. I feel so crappy right now.

Giovanni came over this morning before we went to class. Seriously had the best time ever w/ him. <3 He came over and I had no make up on and I was in sweats and a t-shirt; he kept telling me how pretty and cute and gorgeous I was. You know he's a keeper, haha. We seriously just laid there most of the time talking. I love that. When he's got his arms around me I feel hella safe. I never feel dumb or anything around him like I did with Nick. It's great. I don't wanna rush things, or even want a relationship right now but I definitely like where things are headed. I'm a happy camper.