This is why I'm single. No nigga can ever keep his shit together.

It's so nice to be single and not worry bout no one else's shit. I care 100x more about myself than I did when I was talking to Nick. I put myself on the back burner while I constantly worried about him, all the while he only cared about myself; not one fuck about me. I'm happier. That doesn't mean I don't get lonely or wish I had someone to just talk to and chill with but I'll get the man I deserve..in time. And right now I'm not even interested in none of that.. I really don't wanna fuck with no one right now. I'm too busy with work and school. But if I'm meant to be with someone they'll just fit right into my life and we'll willingly work together. With Nick it never worked and I was in denial about it for two years. It's weird that there's like (not that I'm tryna be cocky) a good amount of dudes that wanna fuck with me but I'm really not interested. Haha. The only dude I'd consider fucking with I already did, haha. But really though, I like where I'm at. Makin money, graduating in 30 somethin days then working full time during the summer the sexy boys at SFSU! Life is good. Miss my Bff Nugget any my BD. <3

I'm not gonna lie, sometimes it gets lonely.

But anywhoo.. I slept so late last night. -_- Well not late but later. Everyone was fucken texting me! I was hella hungry too. Hans said he'd take me to get Panda Express so he better. This week has been going by good so far. I'm driving to school tomorrow! FINALLY took my fucken debit card off of Nick's Xbox accounts cos that nigga wasn't gonna do it in a timely fashion let me tell you, lol. The guy I was talking to was so nice. He said "He lost a good woman." THANK YOU. Haha. He was talking to me about his zombie-killing experience, lmao. Cool dude. Now I'm home chomping on my pasta. I'm ramlbin duude. Okay, now I'll stop. I GRADUATE IN 40 SOME DAY. YUUS.

Nick, this is for you if you ever see it.

When you hit me, don't bullshit me. I don't have time for it. If you wanna talk to me then fine, I'll talk to you. I do want to, it's cool to see whsup with you and how you're doing but don't bullshit me dude. If you want some type of relationship/contact with me you have to come at me right. How you've acted the past few times I've talked to you pretty much shows me you haven't changed for shit nor have you learned/taken anything from what we went through. On the other hand sir, I have. My state of mind is completely different. You gotta show me something new and different. I don't wanna fuck with the old Nick is no way, shape, or form. I want a new frienship and it that leads to something else then fiine but I don't have the time nor the desire to repeat the last two years of my life. When you left it was a weight off my shoulders. If you really want me back in any way you have to come at me with something different. If not, it's not my problem.

But, I do miss you dude.

Without you love it's cold as fuck,

Nick was trying to talk to me more and more the past few days but he was acting like a little bitch on Friday for idk why so it's whatever, lol. I don't really care. It just goes to show how much he's learned from the relationship we had. He's gonna do him and I'm gonna do me, and I'm happy so idc. I'm happy for him working and losing weight and whatnot though. He got all fucken butthurt cos I didn't call him RIGHT AWAY. And I didn't even say when I "got home." I said "later." Why would I call him when I got home when I'd only be home for barely 30 minutes before I had to drop my brother off? I wanted to talk for more than that that's why I said "later" but he obviously didn't get it. Whatever dude, haha. Just when I thought things would be civil between us, oh well!

Got to chill w/ Elaine too! I was so happy to catch up and do girly things. Too bad he Mom is weird and keeps her hostage, haha. I wanna do girly things with her. We had a goodass meal at Outback though. Hi Elaine! Cos she'll see this eventually, haha. I had fun doll! =) Again soon.

It's cool to be single single and all but it's weird at the same time. It's weird to not talk to someone before I sleep and do stuff with. I miss the affection (even though with Nick there was a lack there of, lol). BUUUT, I've got plenty to choose from now. =) Not that I'm interested in any, lol. But it's nice to have options.