I haven't been this happy in a really long time. It feels good.

Got to break with JR for the second day in a row yesterday. Teehee. We barely get to work together anymore since they fixed our schedules around school and stuff and he works days most of the time and I work in the evening. But oh welll. Haha. I was supposed to go bowling with him and Kevin yesterday but my Mom was already outside. Smh. It's really funny to me. I don't like him at all. It's like a crush. If you can even call it that. I just think he's really cute. I don't like people easily or have crushes. Right now it's just a physical attraction and nothing is gonna happen cos he's like, 20 something? Either 20 or 21, I forgot. Either way, it ain't hannin! Muahaha. Doesn't mean I can't stare. I've known him for like a week so it's just physical. I haven't thought someone was this cute in hella long. Since Nick. I think he's onto me now cos of Kristine's loud mouth! Haha. It's hellla sexy when he talks in Tagalog. I never thought it was attractive before but when he does it.. LOL. I feel gay. That's what I kept saying to Kristine. "I feel gay. He makes me nervous. I feel gay. I feel gay." Haha. Anywhoo, today is payday! My hours are hella cut now. =( Today I work 5-10pm. I haven't worn real people clothes in hella long either. It feels funny. So used to that all black uniform of mine's, haha. That army guy Jay came back last night! He's like my favorite customer. So hilarious. Time to get ready for work.

Finally, after 7 consecutive 13 hour shifts I finally get a day off. I'm kinda sad cos I love my job so much. Haha. I haven't had time to do anything since I started working, especially blog. Hella short staff today but it was pretty easy peasy. Not much else to blog about since I haven't had time to do anything.. Haha.

With work, I haven't had time to do ANYTHING. I've work 13 hours straight everyday. I love my coworkers. At first I was really scared but thankfully everyone is so nice and doesn't get too irritated with my questions and noviceness. Hans, Arjay, William, Kuya Noel, Justin, Emilio, Jervic - EVERYONE is SO nice and hilarious! Closing is the best part of the day cos we're just chillen and cracken jokes, plus, that's when we get tips. ^_^ Even though I get stressed out and get yelled at my customers because of the wait at the end of the day I love my job. And my coworkers make it worth it all.

I'm really excited to go back to school. The work and stress isn't fun but I like the routine and I like seeing people everyday. Last year's schedule was the best though. Had classes with the best people. This coming year it won't be the same since everyone is taking all different classes. School gives me something to do and it keeps me busy so it'll be nice to be back. Then the Philippines in December! I'm so excited. Only 27 more days left of summer for me since we start a week early. But all in all, summer has been okay. Just relaxed and chilled. I was supposed to get my rag today. And it's not here, ughh. It's probably just late. =P

Ten things about yourself
I was born in the Philippines
I still have most of my baby teeth
I'm very outdoorsy
I seriously know my favorite movie verbatum, I shit you not
I'm very, very picky
Milk gives me gas
I prefer watching movies rather than TV
If I do like a TV show, I'll most likely buy the box set instead of keeping up with it on TV
Elephants are my favorite animals
If I wasn't gonna be a nurse, I'd be a biology major

Nine things you’ve thought about recently
What we're gonna get our schedules for school
College
When my package is gonna come
I really hope this guy calls me for the interview
I can't wait to move to the city - ONLY A YEAR!
How things ended up
I wanna go to my Grandparent's house
I need to sell that garbage bag of clothes to the thrift store
There's no food in this house

Eight ways to win your heart
Respect
Charm/easy conversation/comfort
Being understanding
We can kick it like we're homies but at the end of the day, we're luhvaaas
Chocolate covered strawberries... =)
Ambition
Sense of humor
Stability

Seven favorite pieces of clothing
Racerback tanks
Shorts
Cheeky underwear
Jeans
Loose tshirts
RCVA beanies
Alternative Apperal burn out vnecks

Six things to do before you go to bed
Listen to music
Fix my pillows/get ready
Get a cup of water
Pray
Think
Wash up/pee

Five things you wish you could say to five different people right this very moment
I love you, but I can't live with you anymore
You may be someone very close to me, but sometimes I just don't wanna be around you
It's funny how you said you can't let it happen yet you didn't do anything about it
I wouldn't have been able to make it through high school without you guys
PLEASE GIVE ME THIS JOB!

Four things you’re doing right now
Watching American Dad
This
Waiting for dinner
Online window shopping

Three things you’re scared of
Being unhappy
Failing
Not being happy with where my life took me

Two things you want to do before you die
Have babies
Find inner peace

One confession
I do miss you, but not a lot

Went to Max's today and waited two hours for the owner to get there for him to finally tell me he'll "take a look" at my resume and if he needs me he'll call. Then I get to school to retake my senior portraits. That guy that signed me in the last time and like, screamed my name and said hi. Haha. He's shoo cute. Just woke up from my nap. I was tryna go to the Avalon tonight but we'll see what happens. I haven't blogged in a bit. I'll catch up on it in a few days.

Yes! Typing up my resume for Maxx's Chicken and hopefully she calls me back for an interview. I mean, she's taking walk-in interviews so I hope I have a chance! Thanks for the help Kristine. I really don't care what job I have. Money is money. Plus, I loooove Maxx's Chicken. But I can't stand working with a million other Filipino people. x_x

My bodysuit came in the mail today! It fits so nice, but my boobs need to grow about 10 sizes, muahah. I can't do anything till next weekend, *sigh. The viewing is tomorrow for someone I don't know.. Then Saturday is the funeral and everyone is going so no ride. Then I start my fucken rag on Tuesday-Friday. Smh. I'm supposed to watch Despicable Me sometime next week with my boys though. I haven't seen them since school got out! I'm sooo hungry. I think I'll grill a veggie burger and have a cheeseburger for dinner.

I want the 7s that come out in August. I don't own anymore sneakers. But I wouldn't wear them all the time so it'd be a waste. I do need to get more shoesies before school starts. I don't want my feet freezing during the winter.

Senior portraits was today. It was hella coo. Saw Smurky since he's taking summer school at PHHS. When I got there it was hella early and I saw David so we chopped it up till my appointment. Took the standard yearbook photo then my cap and gown one. I'm too excited to get the proofs just to see what they look like! Other than that, I've had a looong day.

Bought this body suit from American Apperal online! It cost like $50 total with all the tax and shipping but I love it! I'm herra flat chested so I couldn't wear it without a bra (muahah) so I'll probably wear it like a black one underneath. I've wanted this for soo long! I just hate waiting for things to come in the mail. The necklace I wanted went down $10 too but it's still $32. Ahhh. Money money money. I love money. I can't wait to have this!!

I've been pretty busy the past few days. Today is really the first day I didn't have to work, even though I went to work. Walked around Berkeley by myself. It was nice to be alone and just walking around. It was sooo hot today! I loved it but my Grandma doesn't like, believe in using air con in the car so I stuck napkins under my armpits cos I'm ghetto.. HAHA. Senior portraits tomorrow then FINALLY get to see my lunch crew! I miss them so much. We're giving Rohit a much needed make over. Maybe I'll go shopping too. We're going to Valleyfair! Whee. I hope Vicks can come tomorrow. I miss'er.

$109 for SATs and ACTs and $100 for senior portraits. I only had $257 in the bank and I had to spend $209 on school. Thanks for paying me back Nick. Thaaaanks.

They're on sale for $59.99! But I don't have money. =(

Hehe. (Someone said this looked like me, LOL. But it's not.)

LAST NIGHT WAS FUN AS FUCK. Nuff said.

For the past year and a half I forgot how important it was to take care of myself. And now that I am, I forgot how good it felt. Thanks for walking away. It really does feel great.

I'm really fucken mad. The screen protecter on my phone came off and now I don't have a screen protector or a case for it, smh.. And it's scratched from when it fell from my pocket when I was loading stuff into the Suburban. Now it's super tempermental. Once Nick fucken pays me back I'm gonna get the new one. My upgrade is this month anyways.



/angry rant/

Day 04 – What you ate today, in great detail

Lol, since I just woke up I haven't eaten much. I had shrimp and broccoli pasta that was only 250 calories. ^_^ It was hella yum. Then as usual I drank pink lemonade. I had the Target brand cheddar popcorn, mm. It's good. Not as good as Mother Goose but I can't ever find it anymore. Now I'm eating my favorite: circus animal cookies, the pink and white kind.

My hair is red again. I want to go brown now. -_- I'm so indecisive. I guess I'll just see what it looks like when I straighten it (since it barely shows when it's curly/not in the sun) and I'll see if I wanna keep it. It'll be red for senior portraits though. I need to get my eyebrows done before then though. Rihanna concert +Toy Story 3 (FINALLY!) this weekend. I'm exhausted though. Ny-ny.

Day 03 – Your parents, in great detail

Mommy,
You're the best Mom in the world. I honestly believe you're harboring some inner depression and anger but you're such a strong woman and you put your babies first so you do your best to hide it. I wish I could give you the world; one day I will.. I can't go into detail about my Mom. It just tears me up. 'Nuff said. (EVEN IF YOU'RE A PSYCHO LADY WHO PISSES ME OFF ALL THE TIME!) <3

I can't believe I'm moving "away" (not THAT far away, but I'll be living on my own, lol) in less than 1 year. I'm so excited. =)



*if I DO end up in Sf, which I'm 99% sure I will.

I've done a lot of semi-outdoorsy adventurous things in my life. I've gone snowboarding, jetskiing, snorkling, etc etc but I really really wanna go ATVing! It's kinda like a bike but one four wheels and 10x the size so I'd be able to ride it! I wish I knew where I could do that, and if I was old enough.


/Random thought/

Today was good. Chilled with my brother today. Had a Quiznos Catina Chicken Sammie and Casesar salad for lunch. Cleaned up my room and read a book most of the day. It was pretty relaxing. Mom got home and we went to Target where I got my make up remover, shampoo, hair dye, and mousse. I forgot my white strips though. =( I also bought two shirts online, yippie. I got work tomorrow and (I think) I get paid. If not tomorrow then the next day. Talked to Mom today and I'm set on going to SFSU even though I wanna go down south right away. I'll be living in the city with Tito but he lives on the first floor and I'd get the second so I'd basically be living alone. I won't need to pay for rent, groceries, utilities, nothing. Just gas and tution basically. I'm moving down south eventually even if it's in 4 years instead of the 1 year I anticipated. I'll be getting my masters at UCLA forsure so I'll be down there. If I do transfer from SFSU down to UC Irvine after 2 years at least I would've been going to school to a school up here I wanted +I basically lived on my own. I have like, no money right now. Exactly $107.00. =/ I can't wait to dye my hair. I miss my red hair! My roots are hella grown out too. I wanted to do a hella light carmel (HELLA different, I know) but to lighten my hair I have to go to Sallys and I didn't feel like walking across the plaza, haha. Toodles.

I want this dress so bad. They have it in an XS too. But it's $64... =(

"As soon as I think you can’t get any more stupid, you go out and outdo yourself. I give you a round of applause."

Muahahahahahaha. You really do though.

Day 02 – Your first love, in great detail

Thang,

I've never felt more comfortable or loved by anyone in the entire world. With you I knew what it felt like to be completely understood and accepted by another person. You loved me through and through, regardless of how stupid, childish, bitchy, and annoying I was. I remember every night you'd call me at the same time and we'd just talk about anything and everything. You adored me and I actually believed that was the truth. You never did anything to hurt me on purpose and if you did hurt me, you apologized and reasoned things out with me. I can honestly say I've never been more happy with another person.. I felt safe and taken care of with you even if you were miles away. I remember when I'd get to school I'd call you and wake you up since I started earlier and we'd text all through my first period class, haha. Which was math and I should've been paying attention. Every night before you'd go to sleep even if we didn't talk the whole day, I was sleeping, we were mad at each other, whatever, you'd always text me and say you love me. You knew all the ways to make me feel better. My favorite thing to do was face you and put my chin on your shoulder while you'd hug me. We'd just stay like that for eveeer. You're the only person whose gone out of their way for me. Waking up at 5:00am just to get a ride with your cousin to SJSU and taking the bus to my school to see me, who does that? You did. I remember you hated Ronnie for "taking me away from you." Haha. I remember when we watched Pirates of the Carribean for my birthday one year. It didn't matter how much time had passed since we last saw each other, everytime we saw each other it was so comfortable. You knew my most intimate secrets and never judged me. I remember the night when it all ended, too.. You told me you couldn't be with me because of what happened with Ronnie. I was heartbroken. You told me you did still care about me and the months that we spent trying to work things out again were honest and sincere and you did love me but you just couldn't be with me. I was crying on the phone and you actually stayed on the phone with me even with your brother asleep in the room with you. You told me it'd all be okay. You hated to hear me cry and I knew you felt bad saying all those things to me. We don't talk anymore. It's awkward between us. But I'm thankful that I got the chance to love the most genuine, sweet, loving person I've ever come to meet. You always reminded me that I was the best girl in the world when I was with you. You never let me think anything less. You treated me with the most respect and attention and appreciation. If it wasn't for you I wouldn't think I deserve what I want. You set the bar for any other guys that came after you. Thanks for loving me. It's the best gift I've ever gotten in my life. I hope you're doing well, whatever you're up to. Your 18th birthday is coming up. I'll make sure to wish you a good one.

Sincerely,
Rikki

Day 01 – Introduce yourself

(I'll really try to stick with this one for once! Haha.)

I'm only 16 which surprises a lot of people. My life is composed of mood swings, unhealthy habits, and overcoming obstacles. I'm probably one of the best liars ever, but I rarely ever take advantage of that skill. I complain about almost everything. I don't stop complaining actually. Almost everything out of my mouth is a complaint. Regardless, I'm easily pleased. I think my birthday is on the best possible day of the year and I don't have any reason as to why I think that. Being touched is one of my biggest pet peeves. Unless you're my man don't hug me, don't poke me, don't have any physical contact with me unless I initiate it. It makes me really uncomfortable. I'm 5'7 and 100 pounds - I have the body of a 12 year old boy. I really wish I knew how to swim and ride a bike. When I was a really small kid I'd call "ice cream" "umbing." Peas are my least favorite vegetable. I'm painfully shy so introducing myself to anyone, even doing this stupid post, is making me uncomfortable so I'll stop. Forreal, nap time then outskiii.

Everyone wanted to fucken hit me up Saturday night/Sunday morning. EVERYONE was callin me and textin me non-stop till like 2:00am. Have you people nothing better to do? It was hella random who was hittin me. Yesterday was herra fun. Went to the mall with Bffl, ate and caught up (as if I wasn't talking to her the day before...), walked around and waited for fucken Jamare to get up... We thought of our master plan, hopped on BART, went to pick up money from his Auntie, then went to Ashby flea martket which was fun! Too bad it was closing when we got there. Then we went to Telegraph and got Fat Slice. Typically I hate pizza but it was quite good. And the slices were HUGE for cheap. I wanted Ryno's but I didn't wanna walk and carry it around. There's a Beard Papas opening over there! If you haven't had their cream puffs... Yum. We met this mentally unstable guy at the bus stop and I've never had an experience touch me more than that. We sat there talking to him for an hour and like, you just had to be there. Jamare was talking to him and it was hella inspiration for all of us. I was gonna cry when the dude (Lionel) was lookin like he was gonna cry. You just had to be there. We finally caught our bus. Go home. Fought with Nick. Told me he wanted to blow me up with fireworks.... I GUESS. HAHA. I was laughing. Like, you wanna blow me up? LOL. Whatever. I understood you the first time you went off on me, there was no need to call me a second time 3 minutes later to like, reassure me. I knew, LOL. Whatever. Had Quickly with the Bffl this morning and hung around till 2:00pm. Went to Papa's house and hung around with the fam for a bit then now I'm home. I may or may not have plans later.. Not sure. I need to nap. I CANNOT believe Ronnie cut off his hair..

Yaaawn. Home from TK. Now I'm watching Lock Up again. I guess I'll wear a romper and tights with my TOMS tomorrow. We'll see what tomorrow has in store for me. I hope it's fun. Nugget is leaving for Texas tomorrow! And he's coming back with no hair.... I hate that. I'm gonna miss combing his hair.

Chilllen at Ma and Pa's house for Mama's birthday. Has BJs for lunch. I saw HELLA MEHS people there. Bout to go home and just chill. Another Lock Up marathon. ^_^ Dyl is gonna sleep here. Heading out to the West tomorrow to spend 4th of July with Bffl and whoever else we end up with tomorrow. Probably Jamare. Lmao, if he's here. He always know what to do. I am damn fucken broke, smh. I guess he's payin me back. I fucken guess. I really don't know or believe him but I'll just see.. He don't get paid till next next Thursday so I just have to wait till then. My phone is twippen out. =( I just have to wait till August to get a new one. I think I'm gonna wait for the white 4g to come out though. My lips are itching from these cherries. I think I'll play with my behbeh. Toooodles!

"Why does anyone stay in an unhappy relationship? Because people do. They do it all the time. And the truth is, when you’re in it, when you’re up to your neck in the everyday part of life with another human being,sometimes you don’t exactly notice how bad things really are. It’s not always as apparent as it would seem. Unhappiness, when it involves another person, can be like that line from The Sun Also Rises about going bankrupt, how it happens two ways: gradually, and then suddenly."

Someone asked Alison this Formspring question, lol. This made me laugh. Thanks for thinking that Alison, ;) Tehe. Online window shopping cos I'm broke. =/ Also watching Devil Wears Prada then 27 Dresses after. I'm thinking of making eggs.

who's the top girls in your class that is the prettiest?
I guess it really depends. I think that Sara is pretty and she has a really cool personality (don’t get flattered, beotch) and since you specifically asked “girls” I guess I’ll have to say more than one. Catherine Pham is really pretty, seriously! Tall and her eyes are gigantic, especially when she wears her nudie grey circle lenses. Rikki is gorgeousssss and is stick skinny and looks exotic (HAHA).

Oh yes it does, haha. I should be shopping.. But someone hasn't gotten paid yet so he hasn't paid me back. I'm super sleepy. I showered and ate, now I'm watching a documentary on mail-order brides. The Philippines has one of the highest numbers of mail order brides. I'm probably gonna take a nap soon then see what's good for tonight. I need to hully up and go to the DMV to get my ID +take my permit test. Ughh. It's already July. School starts soon. =( I need to have as much fun as I can before school starts.