Before: Switching numbers, asking if yes or no to unlimited texting. Adding eachother on Facebook, following eachother on Twitter and Tumblr. Giving eachother butterflies. Collecting as much memories as you can, collecting them in your mind like your skull is some type of jar or some shit. Making sure you won’t let them fly out. Closing it up tightly, make sure you’ll be able to find it once you glare at it. Spending as much time together, because missing eachother hurts so much. Saying “I love you” like the other person can’t understand what “I love you” is. Repeating it like they’re some stupid kid who can’t hear you. Texting, calling, Twittering, Facebooking, Tumblrn, and IM’ing like you both are 3074304 miles away. Introducing eachother to eachother’s homeboys and homegirls, sharing friends, having mutual friends. Buying eachother stuff that’ll remind eachother of eachother. Wishing eachother a happy anniversary every month, or years. Taking care of eachother like y’all some kind of nurse. Waking eachother for school, being eachother’s alarm clocks. Sharing clothes like you can’t afford your own. Driving to places to have cute dates like you get gas for free. Fucking like there’s no tomorrow.

After: Deleting eachother’s numbers, making sure you won’t be able to leave them an “I miss you” text message. Because it’ll make you feel desperate, or like you’re still in love with them, or it’ll make you look small, or no pride, or whatever. Unfollowing eachother on everything. Deleting eachother on Facebook, making sure you won’t be able to check their profile.. Because if another girl replaces your spot, you’ll feel sad and insecure like they’re better or whatever. Trying to forget as much memories, making sure to not go to the places y’all went to, and if you ever do.. You end up finding yourself reminiscing. Then breaking down about everything, wishing things didn’t have to end up the way it did. How things would’ve been better if he/she was there right next to you to hold you as you cry to tell you, “It’s fine, everything will be fine.” Giving back all the things they’ve got for you, burning all the love letters, putting them all in a box. Then now, you have to set your real alarm clock. No energy to do anything, especially school. Because you’re scared you’re gonna see him and end up tearing up, then everyone’s gonna ask you what’s wrong. This and that. Which you don’t wanna deal with. Telling your close friends to not mention their name, because you’ll miss them. La la la.

Then another person comes, same shit happens again. Anything new? Can we like.. Give eachother hopes and like.. I don’t know, trynna make “forever” exist? Or something. Don’t you guys get tired of the same routines? We need something new.