It's not that I'm happy your gone, by no means do I want you gone from my life. The thing is this: it's a relief to know I'm not gonna fight with someone all day, cry myself to sleep, be disrespected, lied to, and degreated. It felt so good knowing I wasn't gonna be on edge and second best to some dumb whore anymore. It's not like I don't love you and I don't want you in my life but there's only so much misery and hurt a person can take till they gotta take care of themselves (because you obviously don't). I always try and try and try to see things from your perspective and just be happy with what you're doing but I'm not going to settle or change my standards just to get a man. Nooo way. There's gonna be someone out there who is more than happy to make me happy.

Relationships are a two way street. One person can't always have things their way. I feel like I give a mile when you aren't willing to do the same for me. Relationships are a give and take, reciprocal. It make not be an immediate return but over all that's just how things should feel.

I have needs. I'm sorry I'm not like every other girl and are fine with getting no type of affection at all, but that's not me. I crave to be touched and the contact. I don't need that shit in public but when it's just the two of us, I need it. I want to be told "I love you" but someone who actually means it..

I don't really have much else to say.