I spend way too much time caring about people. I'm tired of giving people second chances (hi Nick). I knew this whole fucken thing was a joke and I regret showing you how I fucken feel. I wish I just ignored you like I knew I should've.. Nothing is never different and people never change. This is exactly why I don't wanna fuck with no one. So I'll talk to dudes or whatever but I dont' wanna "talk" to anyone. I don't want a fucken relationship cos no one is solid. Everyone is so fucken, ughh. I'm happy for my girls who are in happy relationship with guys who treat them right but I can't see myself with anyone cos no one has ever treated me right. I'm not bitter about it cos I'm happy with my life but I'm just disappointed that I gave Nick the time of fucken day when he doesn't deserve shit from me.. "Changed" my ass.