Not that I don’t enjoy spontaneity, but I prefer to have a set timeline of activities. And I’m not only talking about planning my day, or my week, but my life. I want to be married at this age. I want to own my house when I’m this age. At this age, I should be finishing grad school. I like lists, I like order (even though you wouldn’t believe the latter after seeing my room). It gets frustrating because, as we all know, life isn’t linear at all. It’s more like a crazy swirl of events and people and… When things don’t go according to plan, I get flustered. It takes me a little bit to reorient myself. I feel like I’m much too young to be stressing so much about this whole “future” business — whatever happened to carpe diem and the idea of living in the moment? But, at the same time, I don’t want to be irresponsible. Balance is easier said than done, I can tell you that.
Haha, anyways, I need to stop watching so many wedding shows. I get too caught up.
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