It'll be soo weird going to Hayward and not seeing Nick. I seriously haven't done that more than twice in a year and a half. Ever since Feb of 09 I've always seen him when I went out there, even if it was only for a minute or two. I went out there for him. Now I'm going out there and not seeing him. It's probably the weirdest, funniest feeling. My stomach feels hollow just thinking about it. And to make things funnier I have to walk past his house. He probably won't be there but it's going to be soo weird just walking past it and not going in it. So many things have happened in that house, good and bad. I had plenty of memories with him in that house. I'm gonna walk by it, probably see someone's car and remember all my occurences with that person. I'm gonna blink and see the entire layout of the house. I'll see the rooms, the furniture. It's soo weird. It's just so weird I'm going there for someone else, not Nick. It's just so weird!! Haha. It's bittersweet. It's surreal. For a year and a half. It's not even a long span of time but it's just weird. But oh well. We'll see how tomorrow goes.