Sometimes I think I'm just a bitter person by nature. I'm 100% cynical, that's forsure. But sometimes I think I come off ungrateful or something by how I react to things or how I view them. People be tryna make me feel better about shit when they and I both know it's not gonna get any better. Thanks for the concern, but no. They'll just be like "Rikki stop acting like that. Things will get better. You're taking things too the heart too much." Well I think I'm just being realistic (and maybe a bit mellow dramatic and cynical but hey, shoot me). I react to things how I always have and personally I think it's been workin out fine for me. Maybe that's where my attitude comes from.. I hold it in and bite my tongue so much because my sass just be getting me into tooo much trouble with everyone. Idk, I'm rambling. I always tell myself that I need to start being happier. It's not necessarily that I'm unhappy, I'm just going with life because I know until I don't live here anymore that things aren't really within my control. I'm so excited to start taking drivers ed classes then hopefully get a job either in May right before school ends or during the summer. I'm so determined to do for me. Omg I can't wait to move out and live on my own (or, in the house in Sf w/ Tito but that's basically living alone, lol)! I love being by myself. I'm such a hermit, haha.