The year ends in just a couple hours. Where the fuck has it gone? It seems like 09 just started. The year went by soo fast. All in all this has been the best year of my life as cheesy as that sounds. Nothing really "bad" happened. I've had my share of drama and bs, mainly family related of course.., but other than that I've been great.

You're the best thing that's happened to me this whole year. You don't know how much you've impacted my life in such a short amount of time. I really didn't expect much to happen but I'm so happy with the relationship we have. You've grown to be one of the most important people in my life. We argue argue argue but at the end of the day it's you I'd argue with rather than anyone else. It's been an emotional rollercoaster of a year for me and I hope we can make the new year the best for us. We really have come a long way in 09. I'm proud.

I don't think I'm doing much tonight.. I kinda wanna go out and party (not with the normal guys and their gayass excuse for a kickit at the house, lol) but a real party. I've heard about some but I'm not really in that typa mood. But then again I reeeally wana go out. But sleep sounds kinda good too. I just wanna sleep, wake up at like 12:00 then go to McDonalds and sit in the car and eat. Just sit in an empty parking lot and eat. I'm so adventerous. I love it. -_- Everyone is going out tonight and I feel like since it's been such a good year that I should end it on a good note. I don't feel like getting dressed up though.. If I go out that means I have to look nice and do my hair and alla that nonsense. I'm fine right here in the bed. Everyone is gonna be asleep so I can just leave but do I really wanna go out is the question. I do, just not here. There's a party in Fremont but how the hell am I gonna get home? Or there's the one downtown.. Decisions decisions.

I love how you told me "Wow wtf I hope you get caught." and then call me back all calm and shit, lol. I thought that was funny and cute. The two days in a row we spent together were the most wonderful days ever. That's really the first time we've ever spent time together just us. No one was rushing me to get done or something, we just chilled. I had fun. I know we argued the last like, hour I was there and I was ready to just either yell or cry (which I did a little bit of both) but it really did mean the world to me spending time with you. Honestly, our arguement did help. I talked to my Mom about it a little when we got home and she said "You guys argue a lot, which pisses ME off because it makes you moody as hell but I know you love him and by what I see I know you mean a lot to him but he's not an easy person to love it looks like. But if you guys do love each other as much as I think you do, you'll be fine." My Mom understands my relationship problems more than me sometimes. -_- She really did make me feel a little bit better. It was fun eating TK even if you weren't paying much attention to me and I didn't finish my food. It was fun bringing the cans to the recycling place. It was fun going on our McDonalds run and getting food for your Dad and your brother. It was fun bringing boxes over. It was fun helping you pack, barely. It was pretty great. A wonderful thing to be doing the last week of the year.

Yaaawn. I should be doing like, 5 more essays and math homework but I know I won't. I swear I will finish english tomorrow. Heh. Goodbye 09. Last blog of the year.