So that conversation didn't exactly go as planned.. So I'll just pretend like the last three days of my life didn't happen and continue on with myself as if we never even spoke. I completely understand you not wanting to talk about it but I've still gotta take care of me regardless of whether or not we talked. And if pretending works, so be it. I'm really sad though. Things were pretty normal when we weren't talking then when you all of a sudden pop back into my life it's like a giant earthquake and everything is different. It's not fun. Eventually I'll be able to tell you the reasons why I don't think things between us will ever be different but I guess it just wasn't tonight (unfortunately). Idk why I'm crying. Idk if it's because I couldn't do anything to help you or if it's because all of a sudden you reappear in my life and this giant wave if misery and unhappiness overcomes me. I wish I could've talked to you, but I should be used to things not going my way. Oh well. I'll continue to be sad until I fall asleep. I really hope I wake up with my period. I really really hope.