Hella caught me off guard when you texted me this morning. And when you called me I was pretty tripped out. It was hella out of the blue. My question is why? Why did you call me? Why did you text me? Why did you call me to ask me why I didn't text you back? Why does it matter? Why was it that important that you had to call me and ask why? I'm just curious. We seem to be doing relatively fine without each other so what compelled you to text me in the first place? What really got me though was that random call at like 4:45ish.. It was one of those "check up on me to see what I'm doing" phone calls you used to do all the time when we were talking. It was like, you just called me to see what I was doing. Why? Lol. I'm really just stumped. I guess it makes me smile a little bit because I guess you were thinking about me and stuff (and I guess it meant you missed me cos you hit me up, lmao ^_^). The two days after we officially broke things off I did a lot of reflecting back on what we had and my behavior. I could never really make myself a better person because I never really had to, yahhnoe? Even those times we actually did stop talking for awhile to try and work things out I honestly didn't really see what I needed to change on because I took for granted that we'd just go back to the way things were. I was too comfortable with the dsyfunctional relationship we had. I was happy with that because I just didn't want to lose you, even if that meant staying in the crazy relationship we had. But now that I don't know what's ever gonna happen between us I've really taken the time to think about how I acted. If I could get a second chance I know exactly what I need to do to try and make things work, hopefully. But I'll probably never get that second chance, and that's not okay, but that's what it is. I'm not beating myself up over it. I just wish now that I've truly realized my mistakes that we could tryna figure things out and make something, anything, work between us.